This is a story I wrote from an experience during my first year as a Professional Santa. I hope you enjoy it.
I remember as a child that the closer Christmas got, the more anxious I was that it arrived. I just couldn't wait. Our family tradition was to open one present on Christmas Eve and the rest had to wait until the next morning. As we got older we wanted to define tomorrow as anytime after midnight but my parents were adamant that tomorrow was after 6:00 am. When you think about it if my parents had allowed us to open everything under the tree, it was mostly socks and underwear because all the really cool stuff came from Santa anyway.
So waiting was hard. But what if you couldn't wait? What if asking a child to wait would mean the child wouldn't see Christmas at all?
Christmas Morning for a 5 year old in my area was on a Thursday in September. She was not expected to be with us at Christmas and so she could not wait.
I decided early in my Santa career that I would choose my charity work and not allow it to choose me. Santa is the living embodiment of giving and what could be more giving than working with hospice. I already had a relationship with Hospice through my son Robbie, more on him later, so early in my Santa decision I approached them and volunteered to be their Santa.
I stopped by the office to start working on my holiday schedule and reminded my case worker that I was Santa all year if there was a need. She called me that afternoon and said be careful what you wish for. She asked me to be there in the morning and explained the situation. I was very excited and very nervous.
So Christmas came early for a 5 year old little girl and her 2 year old brother. I was very nervous the night before but by the time I got dressed that morning I was focused. Since this was a last minute call, I hadn't gotten around to getting a Santa Bag so Liz made me one at the night before out of the same velvet my suit is made of.
I met Kate (the case worker) at the Kidspath office and she had arranged for several presents for her client and the little brother. A local toy store provided the presents and Santa's new bag was full. It was so full that we tore the wrapping paper on one of the presents as we loaded the bag. Some tape took care of that problem and we were off.
Kate drove us the short distance to the family's apartment and I went in after Kate with my bag over my shoulder Santa-style. This little angel was no longer able to speak, walk or even smile but she KNEW who I was. When I walked in she held out her arms and after I sat down my bag, her mom handed her to me. You could feel the joy in the room. Families with chronically or terminally ill children have a tough life. Sometimes it takes everything they have just to get through the day. I know this is true because we lost our son Robbie in 2003 to HIV/AIDS.
After a big hug we sat down and visited for a while. Then we got right to the presents. There were several "princess" items including a princess set with a tiara and a magic wand. Santa's little princess wore her tiara and held her wand for the rest of the visit.
Little brother got a tool set and a RC car. After opening the tool set, he could care less what else Santa had or what was going on. He was into the "electric" drill. He was afraid of Santa (2 yrs) and wouldn't sit on my lap, but liked the presents and gave me a high 5 before I left.
This is an immigrant family and their sponsors were there. They acted as Grandma and Grandpa sort of, and they were great. Grandpa took about 40 pictures and Kate took several with my camera. I took my photo printer and we printed a photo, which I autographed and put in a photo folder. (We did the printing back at the office, and Kate took it over later that afternoon.)
After presents were opened I read "A visit from St. Nicholas" and used a roll over doll Liz found for me at a thrift store while we were in Atlanta for the International University of Santa Claus. I didn't think Grandma was going to let me have the doll back. (Ho, Ho, Ho) I could see that my princess was getting tired so we said our good byes and left on an upbeat. Back in the car Kate told me the timing was just right.
When we got back to Kidspath a worker asked if I would go through Hospice so the employees could see Santa. Hating all that extra attention, yeah right, I reluctantly agreed. Kate was a great "elf" handing out stickers and small jingle bells. I had large bells tied to my boots so some of the employees came out to see what all the noise was about. It was great. One nurse told me later that when she saw me it was like she was 4 years old again. That makes being Santa all the more worthwhile.
About two weeks later I got an email from Maura, my Hospice volunteer coordinator. It said to call her at the office. I had my hands in several Hospice and Kidspath pots so I wasn't sure what she wanted. When she told me our little friend had died, I wasn't really prepared. I knew when I accepted the assignment that would be the eventual outcome, but when it happened so soon after my visit, I hit the wall. While sitting on my back porch sobbing, Liz came out to join me. I told her I was sorry I couldn't hold it together. Her response was "When you get to a point when this doesn't hurt, it'll be time to stop."
Loving arms surrounded the little princess when the time to move on came and I was told she crossed the veil peacefully. I am honored to have been a part of her last few days and can only hope that the joy of Santa's visit will bring some comfort to her grieving family.
A few days later, Liz read me her obituary and informed me of her funeral plans and a prayer service the night before. I was scheduled to work during the hours of the funeral so I dressed in my best Non Santa attire and went to the prayer service. It was held in her native language, so of course I didn't understand a word, but I did get a chance to see her and say goodbye.
It is always difficult to attend the funeral of a child. Even when it's expected, the sight of a small body in a small coffin is tough. As Santa we see so many kids during a holiday season that we rarely know what an impression we actually make. I know my visit made a positive impression on this family. As I looked down on this child, taken from her family way too soon, I noticed that she was dressed in a beautiful rainbow colored sarong from her native country. On her beautiful head was Santa's tiara. It's times like this that make the twinkle in Santa's eye run down his rosy cheek.